Bipolar

the title doesnt really fit...or maybe it does? its not much like the poem i mean its just the way i feel these dayz. i go from being the happiest person in the world to crying my eyez out in less than a minute which usually feels like forever. things just keep gettin worse everytime but i bounce bak because i alwayz think, at least hes ok. but then he does something stupid. this time worse than any other. come to find out he doesnt even want me to kno about it, but i find out neway. just not from him. he almost died...and he wanted to go bak?! he was spitting up blood and they had a shotgun to his head...and he wanted to go bak?! i swore i'd kill him myself if he went bak and didnt die...i was about to just give up on him and stop talking to him all together just to spare myself the pain of sumthing worse happening to him but then i heard his voice and nothing mattered anymore, nothing makes me happier than knowing hes there. but it sucks that im never sure if he'll b there or not.

i cant take it, at least i dont want to...but i love him so much idk wat i'd do without him. ugh i give up tryin to understand myself. theres too much grey in fact i doubt there is any black or white. nothings ever straight-forward these dayz. sry bout the journalistic description. but no1 said u had to read it.

Bipolar (c) Cc

p.s. the preview is out of sheer boredum. just a smiley face and a tear drop i found online at yahoo.com that i messed around with to make a new smileyface. the original is the normal one of course...idk who made it but yay them! and yay to control c and v!!! for lettin me copy and paste the faces over....and over...and over!!!!