I feel like i disappeared off the face of the earth for a long time...and now im just gettin back. things were happening so fast i felt like there wasnt enough time to react to anything at all. i was just watching life go by hoping it would slow down so i could catch up but the more i tried the farther it got. its weird because i feel like ive missed a big chunk of my life and i just cant figure out what to make of it.

i know i was there i mean i remember being there i just dont remember ever having the time to respond to the things that were happening. everything started and finished before i could even get a word in. i felt like everyone was finding things out before i was and keeping it to themselves until it was too late for me to help or even think anything about the situation. the whole feeling left out thing is in no way something new to me but this was different. it was like the whole world knew something i didnt...maybe things will make more sense once i get some sleep but for now i really dont kno but maybe im no supposed to?